“It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out your door. You step
onto the road, and if you don't keep your feet, there's no knowing where you
might be swept off to.”
-J.R.R.
Tolkien
Life
is either a great adventure or nothing.
-Helen
Keller
Since I first boarded the bus to the MEPS
station to enter the Air Force many years ago, I have always faced new things
in my life like an adventure. Some adventures were like seeing the elves for
the first time in Rivendell, filled with awe and wonder, and some were like
standing on the edge of Mt. Doom contemplating my fate. I have yet to figure
out if having both the kids off to college will be like hanging out with the
Hobbits, or being tortured by the Uruk-hai. My fate is still dependent on my
hope that this new adventure will serve us all. Ok, enough with the LOTR stuff
(although I could go on for days).
This week we took Lauren to Oklahoma
Christian for her first and only college tour. She has known ever since we took
Garrett to school there that OC would be the place for her. It was a great
visit, Lauren got to tour the campus, shadow Garrett to a couple of real
college courses, tour the dorms and meet the head of the psychology department.
We also got to hang out with Garrett and his friends while we were there.
These college road trips are a blessing and
a curse at the same time. When we took Garrett I remember being mostly excited
for him. I was a little sad because I knew he would be leaving us to start this
new adventure all on his own (mostly), I also knew we still had almost another
year before sending him off! Even when he would be gone I would still have
Lauren at home to keep me entertained, and tell me stories. I am excited for
Lauren too, I know she's going to have a great time and succeed during her
college experience (hopefully she has learned some lessons from Garrett). She
will have more stories to tell but she won't be there on the patio, and the
time between stories will be longer. I realize that she will have a huge
adventure head of her with brand new, exciting, and unforgettable "snow
globe moments". My adventure doesn't seem as exciting: The fellowship
broken, the pilgrimage ended, the quest completed. (Sorry, I couldn’t help
myself).
The excitement of getting Lauren off to
college is more treacherous to navigate. I find myself deep in the valley of
despair (that may be a little over dramatic, I know but...), teetering on the
edge of the chasm of how to occupy my time now that I don't have to organize curriculum,
make assignments and grade papers. Because of my AOADD (Adult On-set Attention
Deficit Disorder-self diagnosed, thank you very much) I know that I won’t
teeter for long. I have big plans: sewing projects, crafting projects, painting
and redoing downstairs bathroom, reading, lounging, and maybe, possibly getting
my masters degree-who knows?!
So the road to college is not just a road
for the college student but for the parents they leave behind. I am ready for
this next big adventure, mission, quest, thing.
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